Time 7:53PM SEA . 21-10-2017
If you are reading this blog.. most probably you are suffering from gambling addiction.
I'm one of the you guys out there suffering .. but remember you are not alone .. while I'm writing this blog.. I feel like suiciding .. got no where to turn too... too much debt outside and inside it is killing me as I got no one to share too or more like I have been avoiding it from my
Loved one .. face it if you have the syndrome as below
1) lie to your family or friend for the purpose of borrowing money
2) use company petty cash or whatever cash has been giving to you
3) keep believing you can win back the losses
4) your bet will be getting bigger and bigger each time
5) never give up till there is no more hope
6) once you got money again you will try and win back some again
Hard to quit ? Yes I have been suffering for a long time .. I just lost everything
And now my debt is almost impossible to clear. I'm writing this .. I'm
Hoping someone who is suffering the same as me .. will stop before it is too late
Remember stop chasing the losses . You will never win it back.. it might happen to one out of ten
But eventually you will lose it back trust me .. I win over and over again it only make you worst
I have no solution or cure to be share .. as I have lost till almost everything my wife is pregnant
Yet I still unable to stop .. do not be the next me .. it is very suffering and depressed all the time
You lose the drive to work ... lose the ability to do a lot of stuff.. lose interest into your daily life activity ...
I will quit I really will quit .. for real this time . If I do happen to clear my debt and stand back up
It will be a real blessing. I hope I can .. and I hope you can too
I can't write any further as I got no cure for this addiction sickness .. if you can if only you can
Tell your problem to your family as I could not do it.. I'm penniless now from a good work good income I lost everything it is worst than drug addiction
Do not be the next me and for your better self and future
Quit gambling while you still can . Once you lose everything like me only quit
It will be kinda too late
Hope you guys out there is reading this . You are not alone
Battle it you can do it .. just remember your loved one when you place the bet
Win what can you do with it ? Lose ? It will cause you everything
Pls stop .. pls stop gambling I hope I can recovery from this and share it out on my next blog
If there is a chance . Just stop before it is too late
It is late for me .. but not you
update
2:38PM
22-1-2020
On 2018 April i have win back all my loses include winning.. i manage to buy luxury car, watch almost everything I had the impossible debt, but somehow i manage to pull it out... i have make the impossible.. but somehow i lose everything again.. and now.. the debt is even bigger than before.
you once had the chance but i didnt stop. there is no every sunday.
if you can make it out alive. dont be stupid and fall back into the pit again.
it is just impossible to win it is not possible.
do not trust the possibility to win on gambling.
i had been a addicted gambler for the past 4 years.
i have been living in a world of lies.
this sickness have bring into no where. i really got no where else to go... i lose the direction of live...
i only want to spend time with my son, but i am definitely a big failure... i am not a role model to be look upon to.
i hope i can stand back up once again to share my story to everyone . gambling is really one of the worst addiction . i never think of my son grocery instead i will gamble also on his milk powder money to win back what is cannot be win back ...
i have go into a limbo world.... believe gamble can make a living.. i have once make from 3000 to 2millions. it is a impossible task but i made it out alive. less than few months i lost it back all.. and return my debt now is close to half a million.
I am done. really feel like suicide but i do not have the courage to do so.
eat sleeping pill.
over dose ... guess it is the only way out for me ..
but i will left behind a nightmare legacy for my family.
what is after death.
how life would be in after death.
I am really coming to an end soon... i pray i could make it out alive again or else.
my only option to do one big time drugs or just suicide
i have nothing left.
Please stop if you are of the fellow shadow gambler.
which have been hiding the sickness from all your friends family ..
update
27/8/2021
still surviving.. but the hole become almost impossible to repair anymore...
at the same the time.. depression is back... suicide though is back.... i do not know how to face all my family and loved one.. i just want to spend one good time with them.. and I do hope i have the courage to perform suicide act..
life is short , but if you manage it well you will live a happy and enjoyable moment with no regret.
however I have living in a fantasy ... i have no been working for almost close to 4-5 years , live in a borrowed time ... i hate my life it is all caused by my own hand...
I will have no one to help anymore, and i do no intend to get anymore help.
i do not know how to help my self anymore.
like for last ... all my fellow gambler ... Please control within limit... if stop it is definitely going to be very hard.. control .. lose within your limit , you will not die... but if you go with no limit , lies and deception . you will definitely go to a way of no turning back..
I guess this would be my last update... Good Luck everyone
Be grateful with your life you do not need alot of money... to get those happiness....
